Mothers Day

Mothers Day is always a bittersweet day for me. I lost my own mother to breast cancer when I was just 16 years old. So, after that, I never much cared for Mothers day. It was just a very sad reminder of that huge void in my life. Then, 11 years later, when I became a Mom, it took on a new meaning. Sure, I still greatly missed and longed for my Mom, but I had a beautiful baby girl of my own, and I was a mother! Then, less than two years later, ON MOTHERS DAY, my second daughter, Tristyn was born! As I say, she is the gift that keeps on giving!! Now, eight years after Tristyn's birth, I am pregnant with my fifth child! Yes, I can't even believe it! Five pregnancies, four kids, what am I thinking?!?!?! Anyone know a good nanny?! I will need one!! I am very blessed to be a Mother to three, hopefully soon to be four, sweet, beautiful healthy kids! Yes, they challenge me, and completely wear me out some days, but they are my babies and I love them dearly. I pray every night that I will live a long, healthy life, and get to be there for the marriage of my children, the birth of their babies, and live to be a grandmother that is active in her grandkids lives. I pray and long for all those things my own Mom and I missed out on. What I would give to have her here to talk to, to rock my babies, to take my girls shopping. All the things she missed out on dying at the very young age of 40. She does have her sweet, angel Taylor with her in heaven. That brings me comfort, that my wonderful, loving Mother, and my sweet first born, Taylor Anne, are in a world without pain, heartache, violence or cancer. They are together. Happy belated Mothers day to all of you Moms out there. May those of you who have lost your Mothers, or lost children, find peace.